Now I stop being silent....
It’s pathetic that my growth as a person is making me phony. Phony as in, being too nonchalant, & less spoken & way less angry. Being sophisticated & staying away from drama is low key phony as fuck. All the good traits I worked on & improved from last year is making me feel like the right thing now isn’t really gaining the right results. I’m applying this theory to life itself. Funny how respect was earned more when I was ALWAYS engaged in aggression, controversy, on a defensive front. Now I brush shit to the side, strive for serenity, & positive routes. Thus silencing any real emotion or thoughts that should be said. Everybody gets the same treatment now, but It’s two ways I handle it. Petty people either won’t deserve a response, or I end it right there. The ones who DO matter, I usually end up not saying shit just to keep or spare dope friendships that have true potential in growing. When I see sneak dissing, depending how I feel, I’ll throw a few small subliminal jabs right back. & even though the whole time I’m playing chess, once I get that checkmate, me knowing I can win isn’t even fun anymore so I just stop. The more respectful & quiet I got, the more slick shit got thrown at me. Soooooo when is my Q to Pause & stop something? Lol
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