…but I’m not too proud of this foreshadowed thought.
…..Doesn’t mean I’ll stay the fucking same lmfao……
I get over my feelings quick, like, the more time I trap you in my head to think about the situation, the faster I end up like “the fuck was I thinking?”I just noticed I don’t tell people I don’t like them. That last post, I had like 7 people in my head, & after I finished it, I was like “Wow, I never told ANY of them that I don’t like them anymore. So how many actually fucking thinks the feeling is still there?”
That’s when you create the opportunity to hurt THEIR feelings, even if the intentions wasn’t premeditated. People just tend to get butt fucked when their presence isn’t gaining that attention anymore. I just feel like I’m too damn grown to say “I don’t like you anymore”; but I feel I may have to start doing that….. Because when you don’t, ANYTHING you make that pertains to the relevance of “emotion & feelings” automatically entitles them to assume you was talking about them.Clearly not bitch. Who are you? #iLLwait
I can’t say I know the direction I’m being headed in now, but this is the recovery mode. Almost like, the change is happening while I don’t seem to notice. It’s fucking interesting now.
Either I’m too late for something or I’m too early for it. Either way, I’m losing lol..
I speak this because, I finally found out what was wrong with me. Years ago, I use to be so shy, I could make a top 10 bracket on why I was shyer than most. I first gained the art of being shy from 1994, I moved to Chicago, liked this girl around my age, and from then on I never wanted to open myself up. (Notice that was just 5 years old lol) But as the years went on, it gave me a power I noticed others didn’t have. It made me become a good guy, always knowing how to treat others better than most, just for the affection I had. I would even gain the biggest dopest friendships back then, just so I knew if I kept them around then I could see them all the time, and build love for a lucky future female lol. My last few relationships fucked a lot of that up, normally putting me on a hiatus from having those feelings, until I found someone else. (click READ MORE below)